And from this emptiness a strange feeling of discomfort arose. Perhaps it was boredom that I was feeling. Or maybe loneliness? Coldness by heart and soul? Strange. I thought that I have always been lonely and that I have never felt a warm heart or soul nearby. But perhaps I was mistaken. An old – and ever so true – saying jumps to mind: you never realize what you have, until the day that it slips out of your life.

I thought back to my precious previous life. My friends where still fresh in my mind. Their faces carved in my heart. And I thought of what they might say in this very situation. Their voices and thoughts where speaking through my lips. And I responded their words of wisdom with a true and honest “thank you for still being here with me”.

Salty water rolled over my cheek, while the image of my friends on my retina faded away and the coldness of the night changed place with the warm feeling of hope and plans of future prosperity. Thoughts of a future.. “Thank you, my friends”, I whispered once more, as I abandoned the cold and dark park.

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It’s the 31st of October now. Just minutes away from midnight. I’m still warmly and I feel nested. Tonight I’ll sleep. When I wake up tomorrow, I’ll be born in my new brave LIFE. Not that I’m not alive right now; on the contrary – I feel probably more alive right now than I have ever felt before! But still, this is nothing more but a foetus-state that I am now in.

It is time for me to be born and to be truly alive again! To open my eyes and see the colours of the world – of MY world! To open my ears and to hear the sounds of nature – of MY nature! And to touch – oh yes, to touch and to be touched by others. It’s time to break through this hard shell and to face the new life that awaits me. But for now, one last sleep. Sleep as a foetus…